Hi, and welcome to my blog. This lil' thing here is something that's been on my heart since I was a sophomore in high school, when I recognized that God's call upon my life was to be a writer. I didn't know in what way, shape, or form that was---but I knew it was His mission for me.
I shoved it out of my brain for 3 years. I did my best to forget that I should be writing for Him, but it kept reappearing somehow.
I've loved writing since I was a child. Literally as a kindergartener I asked my mom if I could write stories on pieces of paper and staple them together, illustrate the pages and everything, and gift them to my neighbors.
She said no, sadly.
But if that doesn't show you how greatly writing has been a piece of my life from such a young age, then I don't know what does. I've always written--stories, articles, essays, poems, songs, scripts. And when I wasn't writing, I was editing--my friends' essays, my own essays, the yearbook-- you name it, I was probably reading, writing or editing it.
Somewhere in high school, I lost that fire and drive to write that I'd known as a child. It was probably a combination of being burnt out from having to write so much for school, yearbook, and also having no time.
But in my senior year, I had a revelation that it was His kingdom I was to be glorifying with the skills He's been refining in me since I was a child. With a pen in hand, I sat down at my most vulnerable place and simply began to write.
Now, I'm a freshman in college and I will sometimes legitimately stop in the middle of what I'm doing to write down what I'm inspired by. This is a side of myself I haven't met yet, and wow, I love it. My mind's clearer than I can ever remember it being, all because I've stopped in the middle of life's chaos to simply write.
Recently, I talked to an adult who's been mentoring me since I started college. She's in the writing ministry, which is where I hope to make my living one day. She gave me some advice, and told me that if I hoped to stake my claim in the writing world one day, I need to start putting myself out there more frequently.
"You can't be a published writer who never actively practices writing for a crowd," she told me.
Ugh. As much as I wish it wasn't true, it totally is.
And it's not that I don't want to have a blog---honestly, I believe the process of blogging is going to be the best. Writing my thoughts down? Spreading the Gospel through my words? Hopefully impacting others? My dream.
But, honestly? My flesh's biggest fear is that these words of mine won't get read. That I'll pour my heart out and no one will appreciate it.
But one thing I've been learning in these past few months is that the fanfare of others should never be our reason for doing something. So here I am, putting my words out, knowing that everyone could read this blog... also, no one could.
And that's okay. I can't live to please people, I have to live to please Him. And hopefully I'll continue to learn that as I write more.
When choosing a name for this blog, I was reading through the book of John and stumbled across these verses: John 3:19-21. "This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God."
Reflecting on these verses, I gleaned one simple interpretation from it. Light is honesty. It's raw, it's revealing, it's exposing. But His light is our truth. It will not let us hide, it is founded in full vulnerability. This seems scary... but it's where He does the greatest things. It's where our souls seek Him and become tuned to hear nothing but His truth, His goodness, His love.
So this is my truth: His truth is light. Seek His light. Seek the light that He provides-- for it is revealing, but it is refreshing.
So, with all that being said, welcome to Seek the Light! This is a place where all hearts are welcome. I hope you find solace in my words. I promise I won't be too long-winded... I don't think. ;).